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Appetites by Ann Levin

Image is a color photograph of a measuring tape, two cherries, and a fork, all placed on a square white plate; title card for the new creative nonfiction essay, “Appetites,” by Ann Levin.

  I was halfway through the show when I first saw the picture, hanging all alone on a wall. I knew I should hurry up, had other things to do. But something about the size and the color drew me…

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Abecedarian by H. B. Asari

Image is a color photograph of red tea kettle and white teacup on a table; title card for the new short story, “Abecedarian,” by H. B. Asari.

  Zones of your brain affected: frontal, temporal, parietal. The doctor points at them in turn on the scan of your brain. Those traitorous parts, shrivelling out of existence, threatening to take pieces of you with them. I look from…

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Interview: Janis Hubschman

Image is the book cover for TAKE ME WITH YOU NEXT TIME: STORIES by Janis Hubschman; title card for the new interview with Melissa Benton Barker.

  In her debut short story collection, Take Me With You Next Time, Janis Hubschman illuminates the inner lives of girls and women by guiding the reader through the intricate crevices of her characters’ psyches—the thoughts and feelings that we…

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Author’s Note

New Orleans! The moment I landed at the Louis Armstrong Airport, the city seduced me. The convergence of cultures, the jazz and blues spilling out into the street, the French, the food. New Orleans is fifty-seven percent Black and the full spectrum of our color is on display: I didn’t have to explain the history of my lighter skin. I wanted to write a story with a voice that conveyed the emotional intensity I felt when I visited the Big Easy in my forties. It was a place that was home/not-home.

The voice had to be first person, but whose? Nurses who choose permanent nights are special—they run the show because there are few doctors about. On a medical ward of old sick people, death is always close, and when the visitors leave, the patients feel especially vulnerable. It takes a strong, matter-of-fact person to walk the ward at night. Not the traditional stereotype of the doctor’s wife.

Brenda is used to taking care of herself, even feels somewhat uncomfortable with her husband’s attentiveness. When I decided that she was newly married, it occurred to me that her wedding ring might slip off easily, so that she could lose it. I thought of the song title “Hold On, I’m Coming” (Sam & Dave were from Georgia, where my grandparents lived) before I thought of the ring, because Brenda wanted to hold on to her New Orleans experience, but the tangible ring became the heart of the story.

Travel wakes us up by exploding our routine. We think that no one can see us because we are among strangers, but we see ourselves, often differently, under a tropical sun, with a soundtrack that evokes the past. Brenda and Charles are compatible in middle age but she would not have chosen him as a young woman. The struggle to figure out who we are does not end in adolescence—if anything, it is complicated by greater personal history and wider experience.

I wanted to write a happy ending, wherein the woman doesn’t suffer for a moment’s indiscretion. Yet I wanted Brenda to acknowledge Mr. Washington, to risk drawing Charles’s attention to him. What if Charles asks about him? Is she a good liar? Does she feel guilty enough to confess? She is still emotionally unsettled when the story ends.

 


TONI MARTIN is a physician and writer, author of When the Personal Was Political: Five Women Doctors Look Back (2008). Her stories and essays have appeared in East Bay (San Francisco) newspapers and many other publications, including The Threepenny Review, Bellevue Literary Review, and ZYZZYVA. Read her blog, “Random Thoughts,” at the website linked above, and find her on Facebook @ToniMartinWriter.